“God’s timing is perfect”. How many times have we all heard this phrase and how many times have we said this to others? It is a fundamental truth we all repeat back to one another throughout life, mainly because we all seem to forget. I know I should probably be reminded at least twenty times a day. It is hard for us to remember because it is human nature to want things to happen on our own timeline. This has never been truer for me then when it comes to having children. If I had my way then about three seconds after we were married we would have welcomed home our first baby and at this point (closing in on our third year of marriage) we would have two- three children making our life an adventure. God has had other plans for us. In retrospect I am glad we had a year or two of married life without kids to allow us both time to enjoy being in love and married. At this point we are so ready for kids I keep hoping one will spontaneously appear in the soon-to-be nursery. Alas, that has not occurred yet.

We have been working towards finding our babies, we know they are out there somewhere waiting for us to come find them and shower them with love. We have always said that the majority of our family would be built through foster care to adopt. When our latest baby in the family was born, our nephew Micajah, we discussed our options and came to the fact that at some point we really want to bring a baby home from the hospital. Not for every child we will have, but at least once. We began to look into adoption agencies for infant adoption. Oy with the craziness. We also knew we wanted to open our home to a child here in the United States, because we know there are countless children right here that need a loving home. We thought we had found the perfect agency in PA with low cost and short wait times and to make things even better it is a Christian Agency. However, that did not pan out. We apparently live forty minutes too far from the main office. Forty minutes. That was hard to take. So we began our search again and it seems as though every agency we find now has costs nearing $50,000 and a year or two year wait. This is heart breaking news to me. We would need a year or two to even come close to $50,000 so that would mean we are looking at close to four years before we have a baby. This has led us to renew looking into our foster care to adopt plans.

Foster care, that is totally easy to get into right? No, false, we were wrong. I was under the impression I would simply Google “Chambersburg and foster care” and I would find all the information we need. That was so naïve, I want to travel back a few days and have a serious wake-up/heart-to-heat with myself. I am struggling to locate the foster care agencies to begin with and then I am hearing back from them that many only have older children (8 and up). We are willing to eventually adopt older children but we are not at a point where we can do that yet. We are still waiting for information to come in from a few sources.

It is hard not to be discouraged with so many no’s coming back to us and mounting costs associated with traditional adoption. But what is that old truth again?? Oh yes, “God’s timing is perfect”.  Maybe I need to start saying that to myself over and over again all day long. All we can do is keep our prayers going, keep searching and trust God to bring us to the right agency in the right time to find our baby. With each “no” we hug each other tight, say a prayer and move on to the next search. Each time hoping that this will be the one. 

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